Once Mine !

My floor is wet with those tears of pain
, I see with Him cuddling up close within..

Gave you love oh you beautiful thing,
but was left stranded like that one bowling pin..

I hang now like that leaf on the branch,
with holes galore, beckoning my ugly stance..

You were the road to that illuminated vision,
it was none other than your heart where I lay hidden ..

Connected to you like that network of joy,
but now Im a mere broken toy ..

The next time I ever say that you were mine,
shoot me down just like another murderer in line ..

I sigh alas seeing you rejoice with him,
I smile looking at you being up there n sing..

I gave up oh MY cute thing with no hope or sight,
just told myself that I wasn't able to love you so tight ..

I fade away like that cigarette puffed each time,
you were my tobacco, my addiction, oh you WERE ONCE MINE ..

T(RUST) ?

Never knew its gonna be so hard to live life this way,
you turned me into an idol, but made o clay ..

For me to give into the forces you put forth,
my feelings were left torn, wasted like caught dope ..

I couldn't tell what it felt like having you so close to me that night,
life never told me your coming or else I would have been prepared for that fight ..

That fight in my heart between emotions infinite,
pristine, elegant once defined my feelings for the world to be seen ..

Its not that I don't trust you girl,
its more like my head is the culprit which twists n curls ..

Bloody curls into a puzzle left unsolved by the GOD o love,
but we could solve it baby since we have HIS blood, we have HIS blood ..

I can't think, I can't fly I can't shape into what others want,
so I wonder whether its Trust or RUST engulfing Us in our holy Want ..

That want o being One n not you n me for long
lets live each day now, for life never gave lessons on how to fight ..

I will still wait there and watch you walk by,
and see where does the clock stop ..

But I fear getting dismantled in the time coming,
Lets kiss each other one last time for each others picture might be fading ..

...

Where you goin? I'm here, wait back to see my face one last time.
Or you'l be lonely each day n waiting for the night to loosen your spine .
I can't understand what it felt within,
why was I riding with no horse and no rhythm ..
Things were good all this while,
your face is all I saw with a another man ..
Aarghh wish I could chop my head into pieces aplenty,
life you unkind whore you left me sitting here on the sand with my soul so lonely ..
I come into that house to see your face shine look at me
but I leave thinking is it really me? ..
Yea its my fault that I think so much
that now m a stranded slut with noone to pick me as such ..
Your eyes tell me a story that your faking all you have in you,
your actions prove to me that you love me, oh you really do ..
Fuck this emotion which has gotten me into the garbage bin,
Even when I'm thrown I lie there like a bloody sin ..
This rush o emotion in me nor to cry or feel a thing
when will it end I wonder, or will it go on like a story with no name given ..
I'm going away to find that answer to life and much more now,
no looking back or Il see your face with tears o blood pouring from each pore ..
Wait for me one day Il be back with a smile n soul,
I walk alone oh baby,
on that beach I just walk alone ..